Psalm 38: 15-22 [NLT]
For I am waiting for you, O Lord.
You must answer for me, O Lord my God.
16 I prayed, “Don’t let my enemies gloat over me
or rejoice at my downfall.”
17 I am on the verge of collapse,
facing constant pain.
18 But I confess my sins;
I am deeply sorry for what I have done.
19 I have many aggressive enemies;
they hate me without reason.
20 They repay me evil for good
and oppose me for pursuing good.
21 Do not abandon me, O Lord.
Do not stand at a distance, my God.
22 Come quickly to help me,
O Lord my savior.
My reflections in prayer;
There is a desperation is these verses that we’ve all felt at one time or another.
The aching of being misunderstood
The pain of failing again, or worst the pain of failing someone we love.
The cry to sense Your presence, when my pain seems overwhelming
The desperate cry for help, for change.
Forgive me my sins, they are many.
Help me to remember that as many as they are they cannot keep me from Your love.
Jesus’ death and resurrection binds us,
Holy Spirit, change my heart and teach me not to look at the darkness of my sin but rather to see, to feel, to touch, to know – the light of Your righteousness.
From Tim Keller’s book “Songs of Jesus”
RISING OUT OF THE DARKNESS. David does not merely admit his sin but is troubled by it (verse 18). If we only confess but do not also find the sin repellent—for how it grieves and dishonors God and destroys others—the sin will retain its power over us. We will find ourselves doing it again. Also, he seeks not just legal pardon but the restoration of loving fellowship with God (verses 21–22). This is possible because this God is “my God”—the God of covenant grace who is committed to him (Exodus 6:6–7). The depths of that commitment were seen fully only in the one who cried, “My God, my God” and was forsaken so we could be pardoned and brought in.
Prayer: “Approach, my soul, the mercy seat, where Jesus answers prayer; there humbly fall before His feet, for none can perish there. Bowed down beneath a load of sin, by Satan sorely pressed, by war without and fears within, I come to Thee for rest.” Amen.